January 2026

About the month that went by, rather just flied by.

Very busy, very flowing, very wholesome and very fulfilling - that would be the crux of experience for the month of January, year 2026. It was the month, wherein would lie our son’s first birthday and its celebration with close friends and family. Everything happened on its own and in the end, the countless sleepless nights and early morning awakenings climaxed to a wholesome feeling.

Deeply consuming and simply flowing - almost dream like if I were to sum up the month of January 2026. I just didnt come in the path of things and brought in the courage to do without applying mind - a very different and lasting experience. The buildup to the month had started several months ago as in January 2026 Mehtab was to turn one and we had planned to do a get together of friends and family. My Massi and sister with kids from Canada, my friend Dubi from Emirates; were coming for this very event, and so as the end of December came to near, so was the accumulation of a myriad of emotions. Myself hosting a function, rather two functions (including Lohri) for the very first time I wanted them to be decent, plus with family coming from across the world I had hoped to make their trip memorable and worthwhile. The self inflicted pressure was real.

Much to relief, everything went well and there were only positive comments. A lot of mental barriers to cross and a lot of eye opening to this side of life, something which has remained elusive to me. My marriage was as simple as could be, and I remember that I was ok with wearing my routine jeans to the day, however was wisely coaxed by a friend to go in for a suit. The tie around neck was suffocating and I never wore nor have any wedding ring - told my wife I cant wear it so don't buy it - it don't change a thing. The entire wedding was clicked on my phone by one of friends; to sum it. However, I could not treat our son the same - what he prefers will lie entirely on him in due course of time, but I was to do the basic. Which I did. 

To recall, I only feel a sense of numbness about all that happened really happened and that I could keep my cool and not blow off on one of the vendors (not that there were many); however, for them it was business as usual but for me who was doing it for the first time - I was edgy to say the least. Now I am still better and life is getting back on track and Mehtab is growing to be the man he will be.

Until next time.